There is a point we all get to in life when we won't need anyone to tell us if we are on the right track on our life's journey; some of us get to know while most of us never get to. Not because we do not want to but because we unconsciously decide not to by not taking time out to know who we truly are, or trying to understand the spirit in us that's behind the whole concept of life. No action in life is a coincidence even if it appears so, likewise the people in our lives. It's all part of the master plan.
Although when all of the events are unfolding, they aren't very pleasant, yet as I earlier said, they are part of the master plan. How do you explain the people you meet and the roles they play in your life? I am tempted not to say this because most people will find it rather baseless but I am going to say it all the same - the moment you question why people live. Why we are here? And you begin to challenge the status quo, then, and only then is life introduced to self.
You will begin to see some things you never saw or took notice of, like, coincidences or love, and the sequence in which the events of our lives play.
Drew
It s about 30 minutes since she we went sleep, I guess that's enough time to make the effect fade away I hope she is fast asleep. I make for the door and open it slightly
Sleem
I turned at the sound of the door. Looked up and mused within myself
"Guess my life story got him scared, who wouldn't be?"
Every one's got a secret, like the one you tell after a bottle or two.
"But you never had any alcoholic beverage, yet you spilled!"
"No, I didn?t."
"Yes, you did!"
No? No, I didn't. Even if I did, isn't that what I wanted? ; To be open to him, let him into my world? He is my friend after all, my only true friend. I argued within myself
He sits on the bed, right beside me. I asked him if he was upset with what he found out, he said he wasn't that it was his entire fault.
"I should have kept it somewhere else, not in the kitchen cabinet".
That got me all straightened up.
"It's ok, sleem, its having some effect on you, hallucination is one of them, but don't worry it will fade away" He said to me
Now my thoughts begin to haunt me.
I couldn't just reconcile what he was saying to what I think I know. The thoughts must have sneaked in silently, because I didn't notice them enter in their usual way.They crept up subconsciously
"So you see?"
I paused to observe, still it continued,
"Now you see."
That wasn't my thought; it was way too loud to be real. Still it continued,
"See?"
"See what?" I asked.
"You are mad. Sanely mad"
"There is no such word as 'sanely mad', and please stop 'cos you are getting me confused."
He is still sitting at the edge of the bed while I secretly have this ongoing conversation with my intrusive thoughts
"Didn't u recall the way he looked at you when he entered the room? He was trying hard to make you believe all is well. Isn't that what they do to people who suddenly go loco?"
"I will ask him."
"Oh, you are kidding right? Go on, ask him. That will confirm his fears, get you panicky, and compound the whole picture."
I heard a chuckle and then my strange thoughts say to me, "of course you are not mad, I was just trying to introduce myself, and I guess I was rude."
Now my thoughts have a voice!
Looking at him, he smiled and stood up. Looking down at me, he explained that he will be away for some time, that I will be fine. He also asked if I needed anything. I sure need something, no! One thing: A concise explanation on the concept of existence, which I clearly don't understand anymore.
My thoughts were going gaga
To be continued...
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